For a long time, I’ve been struggling with what I should look like… As a person coming from the generation of first active internet users, I need an image that represents me as best as possible. I’ve tried many shapes… including fairy hedgehogs, cats, etc. But something always felt off. I thought that I nailed it with Alytta, but I didn’t. Enter Alva Anna. This image is based on my self-perception and my physical body. Yes, physical body is something I tended to ignore, leading me into ghostly states I can not wish upon anyone… Identity crisis may sound like a joke, but it isn’t. It’s actually quite painful…
I kept my spiritual race, but visually admitted I’m far from being just an alien on this planet… I’ll drop a little bit of personal lore here:
There are Vieches – the vampires born on planet Earth. They possess two hearts, two spirits. One of those is purely human, another – something else… The phantom which lives a life of its own if not acknowledged. But once a Vieche becomes aware of this second form, they begin their conscious development. When Ervinnes arrived on Earth, they had to fight Vieches for territory, but later those battles subsided, and most of them intermarried, producing Viechevinnes – the modern blood fairies.
Witch hunts conducted by humans were initially targeting Vieches who lost control of their phantom selves, but very soon this expanded onto any practitioners of non-Christian faith, scientists, Ervinnes, Viechevinnes and other races, all of which were normal parts of society prior to the establishment of the Inquisition. Nobody likes to mention, though, that Vieches became uncontrollable exactly because of Christianity, which destroyed the shamanic tradition and left a lot of young Vieches wondering about their strange dream experiences.
Alva Anna Wings is a viechevinne. Vieche blood puts her in close contact with demons, with powers of Nature, the Earth itself… While the Ervinne part keeps her in contact with angels, the Otherside, the world of Dreams and distant stars. Having to constantly deal with her two-sided nature, Alva Anna developed a higher understanding which allows her to see the world in a more complete fashion.
That’s it. I feel fine now… Hopefully, this latest change permanently fixes me. I think I now included everything I possibly could into this image, and I do so hope it will stay with me ’till the end of this life.
